Wednesday, October 07, 2009
ashley posted at 6:28 PM
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it's boring to come to work with nothing to do.
Monday, September 21, 2009
ashley posted at 10:03 AM
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i was wondering if someday i died, how am i gonna account to God the stuffs i did and thought.
i will be very honest, after all he made me he knows me and he loves me.
i procrastinate alot. i am just lazy and afraid.
i'm a angry person.
I hate my mother's husband.
He is a irresponsible person. i hate him for depending on my mother i hate him for not taking care of his children. i hate him for being an embarrassment. i hate him for being inconsiderate. i hate him for threatening me. i despise him for being like a idiot. i despise him for being a loser. i hate him for talking so loudly all the time and disturbed me. I hate him for being a troublemaker.
i hate him for picking on me.
I HATE NOT FEELING PEACEFUL
i hate that i am angry and stress all the time.
i am done hating. i want to continue living.
i want to find a job.
a proper job
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
ashley posted at 9:21 PM
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i swear thesedays i am damn irritable. JUST A TEENY WEENY BIT WOULD SPARK ME OFF.
SERIOUSLY jdhfgfhgfghfgkdfxhgshfdigerhgwhrghrhgfoishdjghsdfkjsjgsrjil
Sunday, February 01, 2009
ashley posted at 11:04 PM
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dear bloggie, mommy was so funny today, she was nagging about my hair. she was like " why didnt you ask me for permission!"
me: OI, it's my hair lehhh
mom: take very long to grow leh, you siao one.
me: !!!
then she act tough but i know she checks on me every single day.
since when did she like my long hair, i rmb 2634535 years ago she always ask me to cut it short cos she says i cant maintan. how weird huh.
i painted very nice nails.
wee wee wee
Saturday, January 31, 2009
ashley posted at 3:20 AM
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i live in a flat world
seems like dreams come to reality and reality sink into dreams
everything just gets worse
if i just admit that i am really upset, scared, extremely exhausted, messed up and crying all the time, will all these go away?
it has only been a few days and i am utterly tired
more so mentally then physically.
i feel like i am going to crack having to pretend i am okay.
i feel bad when my friends and family feel bad for me. i dont want them to feel bad for me.
i love my friends. i am not ready to go out with them, but even more not ready to be alone.
i am so tired yet i have to pull everything tgt myself.
what am i going to do?
Friday, January 30, 2009
ashley posted at 8:08 PM
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it's awesome to have at least my blog to whine to. haha (:
i think maybe i am getting better, you see, i ate 2 meals yesterday, i slept at least 8 hours yesterday ( good progress huh).
i still have my major mood swings but who cares, if i tell myself i am okay, i probably will be. and after all, i looked at the pictures again (today, i know i am damn bo liao), it still stings i guess but i think it's quite a good motivation.
HAPPY MERRY NEW YEAR
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
ashley posted at 7:44 PM
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it's mostly disney channel and friends
hhohoh(:
Friday, December 26, 2008
ashley posted at 6:21 AM
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i just want to keep a poker face and pretend that i dont care
i spent quite an awesome week this week as it was lyq's bd!
hohoho
we had a christmas gathering at yy's hse and it was fun,
we almost spent the entire night gambling! HAHAHAH i lost though(:
the food was awesome and the company was incredible!
thereafer we went up to yy's hse to mahjongggg
hahahah i was the greatest winner that night!
hail to the mahjongqueeennn.
yeaaa rightttt
on christmas day, yq and i went to pinic at west coast!
ROMANTIC HUH!
and i cooked pasta which didnt taste bad at all ( to my surprise) HEEHEE
we had an silly argument over twilight though!
HAHAHA
( you are lim dog dog)
i finished the twilight series already!
so excitng!!!!!!!!
i am going to buy all four books!
that is went i have the money though.
tomorrow's conrad has burnt a hole in my pockets ):
all worth it!
ashley